so dh came home last night from work and we talked briefly. he admitted that he is under a lot of stress, is very tired, and is short tempered. he is working two jobs right now, while also studying for a series of work exams. i understand this, but its still taking me some time to forgive his words and actions. i'm just hurt, more than anything. he said that he loves me and that we need to find a therapist. i agreed to this, as i love him too, and things are out of control. we sat outside together and watched the meteor shower, in peace and quiet-no talking at all. this morning, we had a longer talk, including the fact that we rarely disagree or argue, except when it comes to the skid situation. we cannot find solutions to the skid issues we have and its creating so much stress. we both left for work.

i came home tonight to find a message to me on fb from bm. i am not her friend, nor am i friend's with the skids on there. obviously, one of the skids told her how to find me. the message basically said that *i* need to get over myself, and if i think i am so high and mighty, she will come and get ss, so that he can have a family who actually loves him. at first i laughed, and then i was so angry i couldnt see straight. i have raised her children while she was off drinking, doing drugs, and sleeping with the whole town. she has never worked a day in her life, and lives off money from her parents and grandparents and whatever boyfriends she can find. she has never paid a dime in child support. she is a queen of the PAS behind dh's back and from afar...dh has full custody and she has no leg to stand on. the first time i met her, she told me all about her and dh's sex life when they were married, and pretty much embarrassed herself in the process. ss even said the day he got home from his summer visit, that one of the reasons she wants him to move in with her, is that "she could really use the child support money". she is a hateful, spiteful nutjob who i have been fortunate enough to have very few encounters with. i went to her page, and found a conversation going on between sd19, bm, and ss, talking about how poor little ss made an innocent mistake in tearing up my garden, and what an awful mean person i am. i did not respond to her message because i know exactly what would happen, and you all know it too.

this is the last thing in the world i needed. i do not want to tell dh about this, as i cannot handle any more fighting with him. while i want to scream at ss and tell him that his mother needs to mind her own f*cking business, i cant. she is his bio, but everything she says is meaningless until the day she actually steps up and decides to be a parent. she has always just been the person that calls the skids periodically and stirs up drama.

i love dh with all my heart. i am hurt right now and angry with him. but i love him dearly. however, i would not do all of this again in a million years.