I must calm down or it may result in me beating the heck out of SD12 and going to jail....

Last week SD12 had yet another fit... screaming, throwing things, breaking things, calling me every name in the book. All because she was caught in yet ANOTHER lie. She's been on restriction, non stop all summer! She started screaming that I was stupid (one of her favorite words), that her sister was stupid, that the restriction was stupid, and everyone else. When she was called out on it she said that she was stupid. I told her that since she knew so much about the word "stupid" then she could write a four page report about it. The report had to be on "What life must be like for people who are labeled stupid and aren't, how she is not stupid, and how she can prove it to others in the future"

Two days later she gave me two pages of BS. It was a glorified apology letter. I refused to take it. Since then it's been one fight after another. She yells and puts down her sister, talks snide towards me, and has been plain rude. I've been telling DH just how bad she's been when he's not home, but he doesn't see it. When he gets home, she's all yes mam, no mam, can I do anything for you.

Well this morning she was caught lying yet again, plus stealing too. The skids don't have any money right now, not even change. Well this morning she was gloating to her sister that she had 85 cents. I asked her where she got it. She told one lie after another. She couldn't keep her story straight more than two seconds. I told her DH and I knew that they had been taking money and asked her were she got it. She kept on lying and started throwing another fit. So I sent her to her room and told her to stay there. She in turn spun around and threw the change across the room. I told her if one of my Chihauhuas swallowed one of those coins I would beat the ever loving crap out of her. Then I forced her to go to her room while SD11 and I tried to find all the change. (my chihuahua, Zoey, will eat anything)

She only had to be there 15 minutes, b/c I had to go by my new job and fill out some paperwork. After that they told me to go to the county jail and get finger printed for the background check. While there I got the Skids finger printed too (for emergencies). SD12 asked if that was were she would be going if they sent her to juvy. The officer overheard and went from being nice to her to being mean. SD12 I think got a little scared. I loved it.

Then we got home and after she ate lunch and did her chores I sent her back to her room. While there she cried, screamed and carried on for hours. Screaming she was tired of restriction, tired of being called a lier, and on and on...

Then when DH got home she started the kiss but thing. Well DH is sick and tired of the fits she has and told her to shut up. That if she didn't want to be called a lier then quit lying. After dinner I told her to go finish the paper she owed me, instead she went in her room and preceeded to scream. DH (who had a headache) went in and chewed her out. Well that didn't do anything but make it worse.

One thing led to another and she kept pushing the issues and DH went in there 3 times threatening to use his belt. Well the she told him that I "me", I was the reason she was always in trouble. That I said thing to purposely make her mad. That I started the fights b/c I like to see her in trouble. Well we live in a mobile home and I could hear everything in the living room. I stormed in her room and said "excuse me!" I told her if I was all of her problems then why did she go out of her way to piss me off everyday. And how is it, since I'm the problem, that she couldn't control herself at her BM's house either. That I must be Flash Gordon if I could be in Georgia and forcing her to try to roin everyone's life in North Carolina at the same time. DH told me to calm down, quit yelling and leave the room. I calmly told SD12 that since I was instigating the fights that she was not to talk to me till futher notice. Hell she's already not allowed to be in the same room with me if DH isn't there. I also told her that I expected the page she owed me by bedtime tomorrow night and if it wasn't done then she could make it 8 pages (she's had a week to do it)

I no sooner stepped in the hall when that smart ass yelled at me "If you want your f%cking paper done then do it yourself!" Finally she acted like she does when DH not around!! Well I couldn't make it back into the room to say anything to her and DH already had his belt off and was wearing her butt out! I've NEVER seen him that pissed before. He informed her that she would never speak to anyone that way again or this spanking would be childs play. Then he told her she owed him a two page paper (on I don't know what) and that it and my paper better be done when he got home from work tomorrow night.

I told her that I would be HAPPY! when her court date came. Happy to tell the courts how she was tearing up our home, trying to roin my marriage, happy to tell them about what a bad influence she is on her younger sister, how she stays on restriction, has no respect for anyone, how she steals from her father and I, how she distroys her sister's property out of spite, and about how she constantly lies. I also told her if that asked what I would like to see done with her that I would tell them to send her to juvinile!

They say there is a first for everything. Well she is a couple of firsts for me! She's the first kid I have ever wanted to punch, the first kid I have ever hated, and the first kid I wish would die or go far far away to never be heard of again. I know that's evil of me. I'm going to have to prey alot about it. I don't like to feel hate for anyone.

Sure there are plenty of people I've disliked in my life but only two I've ever really hated. My third stepmother, Diane, who beat me, distroyed mt clothes, starved me, locked me out of the house w/o a coat in the winter, and tried to break my arm.... and Brandy, SD12, who would do anything to distroy my marriage, who gives me panic attacks, heartburn, and high blood pressure, and who has distroyed any since of peace in this house.