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I believe Im at the end of My rope. I have no drive for anything. I feel the Skids and their mother have pushed me from being a happy driven person to a i dont give a crap zombie. I understand when theres kids involved you have to not be a selfish person and do whats right for the kids. But, when they show no intrest in me and what i try to provide to them It runs a person down. At this point i feel like im getting used because i provide very well for them. I get mad to feel like crap when i show my 2 year old son attention and love. The Skids tell their mom well we see who the favorite is and smartass comments. They dont even want my love and time but they want to get mom on my ass about it. Frankley i dont care anymore about what they want or think. I stay home with my son when they have school functions and sport games cause i could careless about rooting them on when they bio dad is there to do it and they want his praises and not mine. Im a changed person and I hate it. Is this normal Skid distruction? Am i crazy? I believe I am if i stay around.

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No saint's picture

You trick yourself into feeling numb when you keep getting hurt. You fear disappointment so much that you quit arguing or even trying to make a point of view. The downside is that once you get good at feeling nothing, you will stop giving a rat's ass for the bad stuff but something inside you will restrain you from feeling happy. If you value happiness and being so-so for the rest of your life doesn't quite cut it, run as fast as you can. Hope things turn out for the best.

Teas83's picture

Ripley, I love that comment: "Are you telling me you don't love your mother more than me?"

That is such a good point. My poor, precious, little SD is so sad that I spend more time with my DD and love her more (according to BM and GBM). My husband even used it against me once in an argument, claiming that I've "ignored SD since DD was born."

I'm going to tell him this next time he says anything about me not treating SD as though she's my own child. She doesn't treat me though I'm her own mother.....it goes both ways.

Tuff Noogies's picture

brilliant, rip! '"Are you telling me you don't love your mother more than me? Seriously?" then give them a your nuts look.'