My name is Scapegoat, given to me by myself, not my mother.... I'm starting this a little late in the game, but in finding this, I feel like I finally found a place to vent & tell my story. So, I'm going to try to start from the beginning, it's long, so bare with me!! I met my BF, which I will refer to as my FH, even though we aren't engaged or anything yet, but we plan to soon! I am in my early 40's, FH is just a few years behind me. He has 3 children, 2 girls & 1 boy, ages 7, 9 & 11. I will refer to them as SD & SS's just to make it all easier.

I'm glad I found a place to vent, get advise & hopefully gain some much needed info on getting through this life with BM, whom I like to refer to as Sybil! I feel as though my friends are sick of me talking about my sitch with BM & I don't even want to share most of the craziness with my family!!!

When I met my FH, he had been divorced for 3....THREE years! BM was living in the same small town & they were sharing the raising of the kids. I say that, but I think he's the only one who raised them! She has, what we think is Borderline Personality Disorder. She is pretty far out there. She is also very Narcissistic. did I even spell that right?? FH was single when I met him, lived in a rental & she had him moving in & out of her & the skids lives constantly. She would call him anytime of the day or night, text him, drive by his house, go to his work..... She was harassing him constantly, relentlessly... He had went through this for like 10 years, so he had become numb to it, thought it was fairly normal.

Their marriage was messed up to begin with. She was young & beautiful when they met, got knocked up & he did the right thing by marrying her. WRONG! She basically was a basket case shortly after she got her little hooks in him. She controlled & alienated him to the point where he was brain washed. She would pretend she liked his friends & was having a good time when with them, then flip the switch when they got home. She always wanted change...cars, animals, hairstyles & houses. She pushed him as far away as she could then decided their marriage was failing & got preggers again....same story, then preggers again. During this whole process, one of the ways to make her marriage work was for her to push him to find another woman when things were bad, then she would get mad at that woman & threaten her...DUH!

So, this is just a view into the way his life was with her. A small glimpse of all the bs he went through. They fought, to his dismay, in front of the children. Those kids have seen & heard things that children should never witness. They had no idea what a normal family life was before they met me. I love my FH & I love the skids. I hope that someday they can see their BM for what she really is....a lunatic. And I hope I can be a positive role model & they will love me. Sounds easy, but I know it won't be.

I have been through hell with BM & it's so crazy I just needed someone to tell my story to. May not be as crazy as some of yours, I haven't gotten to read much on here yet, but it's my story just the same. In my story, you will hear of how everything is of course, my fault, murder threats, arrests, drama & I will throw in the happiness that peeks through all the bs as I go to. This is going to be my online diary! Whether it gets read or not, I don't care. I just need to share it with you & thanks for listening!