The past few days were emotional but today I have to say that I feel better. I decided to see a family therapist and the therapist told me my best bet was to cut ties. Because he still thinks I should "come home" while he "fixes" his kids. Earlier tonight he text me "I though you wanted to try again with the girls?" My reply was "Excuse me? I did try...I tried plus some. I have bent over backwards for your kids and what did that get me?" He totally realizes what his kids have put me through but I will not put myself nor my kids in a hostile environment.

He can keep continuing to ask me to come back but it's like I told my therapist...Even if a miracle occurs with his children (which I am not holding my breath) after everything that they have said and done to me, I don't think I could ever like them. I will always resent them.

I am going to start focusing on ME and my kids. Today I stuffed my face all day long and it felt great! SO STILL has yet to tell his kids I moved out. So what is the hold up?