It just dawned on me: I think I should stop worrying or getting annoyed at my SK. Honestly, the main reason why I am annoyed at times is when I associate him with BM, but one thing I realize is that they are two different human beings and have totally different personalities.

I know SK likes me although he hasn't been so vocal about it but I can tell that he cares. Most of the time he's shy to approach me but I guess it takes time for us to get used to each other. When he smiles at me, I know he's not faking it. It's hard to fake expressions of delight and excitement. After all, he is just a kid who likes to play and gets excited by the littlest things.

So today I pledge to try my very best to make him feel loved and welcome to our family. It's not that I did something bad to him in the past-- I was just indifferent for the most part-- but I guess it's time to make him feel like he's an integral part of our family. I know I will never replace BM and I am not trying to. I'm OK being referred to as a step-mom and I know that I will always treat my own son differently than how I treat SK.

I really think that when my mind is calm and I see these happy faces around me, more blessings and happiness will come my way. So, until BM does something crazy or outrageous, I'll try my very best to be a good influence and a source of information for my family including my SK.