For starters I imagine I am a lot younger than your typical SM. I'm 21 years old and I was 18 when I met my boyfriend and his son. Who I adore, I love the kid like he's my own. At the time I met my boyfriend he was going through a divorce he was 19 and his current wife was pregnant with a second child, which I knew about. After the divorce was final, and a baby girl was born the BM then claimed that the little girl was not my boyfriends. Months went by and we moved in together, we filed contempt on the BM for not following court order and we went back to court. My boyfriends child support got raised and a paternity test was finally done. Much to our surprise the little girl was my boyfriends. She was almost a year old at the time. We started getting her for visitation a month after that and everything when down hill. We fought everytime we had the kids, he became so angry about everything and I was frustrated because of the new kid I had to share my boyfriend with. He still has visitation but when we go to pick up the kids we only get his son because the little girl would scream and cry every time we picked her up. My boyfriend decided it would be better for her if we didn't get her anymore. Because of the child support, we lost the house I have so much resentment and anger towards the girl I don't know what to do. I know he wants to see her again but I spontaneous want anything to do with her. I feel guilty that I can love his son so much but have so much anger towards his daughter. I want him to be happy and I know her being a part of our life will make that happen i feel like he's holding back because of me. How do I make it easier? How do I love her like I love his son? How do I accept that this is the life I chose and how do I make the hurt stop?