So I'll try to make to make a long story short. SD moved in to live with us whenever she was about 5. Her mom was in and out of jail and lied to us and minipulated us, stole money from us, and still collected child support while in jail for months!! It was a nightmare. She's been living with us ever since and now she's 14. Her mother lives a few states away so she gets visitation in the summer time. This is my break time. I've tried to bond with SD over the years and we just never clicked. Neither of us are happy with the situation but we both basically put on smiles and try to keep on keeping on. Her mother is in a much better situation now than she was when SD was younger and after great consideration they have an agreement for my SD to go and live with her. I was relieved. After all these years, I felt like I would fianlly be able to breath again. Feel happy again. Feel alive again. But  they are moving out of country and she's having trouble getting a visa for SD. So it may not even happen now. She may still be living here. And it hurts. I just feel so defeated. Time to wear this fake smile for who knows how much longer. I just feel so down.