Usually I post blogs. I want some support right now. This is so much for our "family" right now. So much has happened in the last 48 hours that I am surprised that my BF is still standing.

Yesterday, Monday, BF took me, his mom and his sister out to lunch for Mother's day. We decided to do it on Monday since places would not be as crowded. Everything was ok until his Mom started to tell us about a bad experience with her husband. She has been living with financial and verbal abuse from her husband for a while. He works in his family business but does not bring home any money, business is NOT good. BF's Mom works and has to pay for everything since her H will not pay anything. He has done things like steal her car when she wanted to go to a funeral instead of going to the basketball game he wanted to go to. Crazy stuff like that. I have tried to talk to her before, and being a survivor of abuse myself, I know that until she decides to leave on her own, it will never feel right with her.

So the latest drama is that she and her husband tried to talk about their marriage and it resulted in a fight. He pushed her onto her bed and left bruises on her arms. Later, he grabbed her and pushed her down in her recliner, she screamed and someone not in the home called the police. He was afraid he would send him to jail (I would have) but she did not press charges, but she informed him she would the next time.

There is more involved in this, but the next part of all of this is why I need support.

Today BF and SS13 came home early from work/school. WAY early. I was getting the silent treatment at first, for like an hour. I thought I had done something, but after hearing, I understand that BF is so overwhelmed with all of this.

SS13 had tried to kill himself last night and told someone at school about it.

SS13 has had a few episodes where he claimed he was going to do this. He goes to his counselor and all is ok for a while. This came from out of the blue. As I have mentioned in my blogs, BM did drugs, lost custody of her kids and BF has them 24/7 now. Well, the latest is that she was in a rehab program that she decided to quit. BF is thinking that SS13 is all about being upset with his mother. I am SURE that he is. He does not trust her, he says he does not miss her but I am certain he does. This is all very true. I am not entirely convinced it is the whole story though. In my blogs I also talk about my SD11. She has BF just wrapped around her finger. It is hard to explain in a short note what I see between BF and his kids individually. I think that part of it is that BF dotes on SD11 and does not know what to do with SS13. It breaks my heart. I have tried to tell him for 3 years now that he should spend at least as much time if not more time with SS13 than SD11 because he is so sensitive. I just get, "SD11 is so fragile, I know this all hurts her. SS13 is just fine" SD11 is the one with all the smiles all the time, SS13 tried to kill himself.

Please my friends, pray or what ever you can for us right now. BF's mom is looking for a man to help her and right now is a bad time. I am so afraid for SS13 right now as well. He needs a father that won't even watch TV with him. Like I said, just too much to even try to explain.

Thank you.