They are coming for a two night visit TODay! The reason for their visit is to bring a new computer to convicted criminal MSD . They are driving four + hours to deliver it in person to the ungrateful bi%#€£. I am not spending the day that I need to be reading for school, cleaning the house or getting the guest area set up! DH can do it when he gets home from work.

I wrote most of this rambling last night when I was too peeved to sleep. Even after a sleeping pill.:
I am saddened by all the stories I read that could all be written by the same hand.

I know I need to stop checking the phone and email of DH. I am still compelled to do so. He locked his phone a month ago. But I cracked the code one day when he left it home from work. We had a very bad argument the night before and part of the issue was the constant disruption of him on his cell phone checking work email or getting texts from the skids. I said I did not trust him since he locked his phone and hid their texts from me. Of course we were fighting about his daughters. I knew from the phone record online that the one D had texted him a lot the day of her court sentencing. He tried to say it was just brief messages telling him what happened. I said if they aren't so bad then let me see them. His paraphrasing in the past always left out if they were calling me names. So he turned away and was fiddling with his phone and then started off by showing me some from the other daughter. The log on his phone for the middle daughter was empty. He had deleted them. So I know they were bad. And I know he lied to me. She may have been threatening to kill me again for all I know. So it was a very bad arguement and he slept on the couch. He left his phone here the next day and I guessed the code.
So I feel better that I have that control of being able to see what is going on. But bad that I have to spy to do it.

I'm peeved tonight because his folks are coming up to stay for two nites with us so they can bring a computer they brought for the criminal step daughter. She claims she can do her work online if only she had a computer, since after her conviction for Insurance fraud and identity theft she lost her professional job as a speech therapist in a nursing home. So now she is not communicating with my DH except infrequently to bitch at him, ask for something or rag on me. Or guilt trip him since his bitchwife kicked her out and he let me. But she will contact her granddad and cry poor me enough to get a new computer out of the deal. He will probably pay for the Internet too.

I am peeved about the short notice of the folks visit. DH will have to clean and set up the guest bed tomorrow after work. I don't plan to do anything. They are not coming to see me. I have a ton of reading to do for school and some things to organize for work from home.
I have such post traumatic stresses left over from that bitch being in my house for five weeks shunning me and trashing me to everyone that the mention of anything to do with her freaks me out.

Before hearing about the spontaneous visit of the folks we were having a nice weekend. Almost felt like old times. Even went on a hike to see some waterfalls today. Was feeling good. So maybe there is hope.

His daughters are still not allowed at our house. And that is not something that will change anytime soon. So maybe this year I can enjoy the holidays.

For Facebook I blocked the whole lot of them except for FIL . I do not even have my DH as a friend. He used to go thru my account to see his grandchildren photos on there. When the MSD was here he wanted to bring her up to look at them on my computer. I said no. She can't have access to my account even to look at the photos. After that I set him up one of his own. And have never friended him. He brings it up from time to time but I will not waiver.

So it is back to being a spy and hoping all stays quiet. And if it doesn't I will just have to go from there. It is bad when the cover gets blown and it is back to being completely in the dark.

Poor DH told me that he has told his dad that he hopes one day his daughters and I will get along. After they apologize to me of course. Let him have his dream. It ain't going to happen.

I did have a stepmother though I never called her that since I was almost grown when they married when I was 17. Only a year after the divorce from my mom. I never would have treated her the way I have been treated. My dad would have put me out the door if I tried. I didn't really like the woman, she talked nonstop about her life and kids and my dad could never get a word in edgewise. But I never would have said that i didnt like her to my dad. Not like DH older daughter did about me with him on his public wall on Facebook. And even though the best times I have had with talking to my dad have been after she passed. I would still never disrespect her.

The grown skids I am dealing with are just vicious. Their parents were divorced long before I came along. Guess they don't want their dad to have a life and be happy. So sad indeed.