This will be hard to even type and I know I will catch hell over this and trust me, I already feel like a horrible person. My earlier post was talking about how my sd just had a baby. She is mean, compulsive liar, and manipulative. Deep down, she resents my husband and I. She is pretty much only nice to me and talk to me if I have bought her something. I blame myself for putting up with this for 13 years.
My husband is in another state visiting the baby. I refused to go because I have no connection to that baby and his ex wife is there.
The main reason is I don't like my stepdaughter and don't care to be around her.
I don't have my own kids so I guess I don't understand that when you are a parent, you will put up with a kid that treats you so horribly.
By the way, my own husband will tell me "they don't give a sh** about you" but he expects me to be hopeful. He has lost his damn mind! I think 13 years is long enough to be hopeful.

So..here is where I'm going to be honest and everyone will think I'm horrible.
I resent this baby, feel no bond, and to me..this baby is only a tool to manipulate my husband.
Deep down, I wish she didn't have a baby. Yes..I'm horrible!!
It's not that I don't want her to ever have a baby. Just not now.
In July (being the sweet stupid person I am) talked to her on the phone. She told me she really wanted a rocker. She found one she liked and I spent 500.00 on it.
I did not do it to buy her love (been there done that) but simply because she wanted it.
The minute I bought it, didn't hear another word.
My husband is so happy right now and he has no idea how miserable I am. And I won't tell him. I have to talk to him on the phone later and he will be home tomorrow eve. By the way, I'm very transparent. It's hard to "look happy" when I'm not.