VERY SAD....
at what point do you realize that even though you feel you have found the right man, someone who truly understands you and makes you feel whole, your life will never be as you always dreamed it would be b/c of the skid?
i have such hatred towards sd and her mother, and now towards my bf. how can he hurt me this much over and over again/ how stupid am i??? i have a child with him, how can i leave him now knowing that my bd, almost 3, would miss daddy so much? she has problems already; mild cp, microcephaly, possible adhd, sensory processing disorder.....i am already dealing with alot with her and do not want to add anymore stress to her life or my own.
sd was gone for a year, and it was really great. everyone i know has told me the difference in my mood and view on life when she left. now i feel depressed and anxious all over again, i cannot take it! i am already a walking heart attack--obese and i smoke alot, dont get enough sleep, always stressed....began to get grey hairs at 25!
Can I ask why you hate your SD so much??
I can understand the BM as not one day goes by for me that I don't dream of that bitch dropping dead from diabetic complications. My SS is needy,clingy and VERY spolied but I can't say I hate him. I will say I do wish DH and I lived farther away and maybe had less time with SS sometimes but thats it. How old is your SD?
maybe hate was too strong a word...
sd is 10. i met her when she was six. it has been a very unpleasant 4yrs with her. the last thing she did b4 she was sent to her moms for a year was tell her school i beat her....not true at all. i had dcf come to my house and everything. she thought that would make them send her to her moms.
bf sent her b/c she wanted to go not because she tried to send me to jail. he told me that night to 'get over it".
theres so many reasons for my dislike, some are my own personal issues i have.
i just love when they tell
i just love when they tell you to get over it like its a cold or something or if you ignore it it will fix itself and all will be right with the world. i'm not even a stepmom yet but i'm telling you its hard work
WOW I can see your point...
DH and I also have been investigated falsely by the CPS, had false police reports made and court appointed house visits from the law guardian. BUT none of this is SS's fault its ALL BM'S doing just to get even with DH for being happy with me. This last time in court the law guardian gave BM hell for causing all this drama in our lifes without having good reason. Of course nothing came of it as DH just dropped it and did not push to have BM punished for making false claims against us so the court dropped it to.
Getting back to your SD if it was me I would be more pissed at your DH for not backing you up as he is the adult. Your SD sounds like a spolied brat who needs some good old fashion punishment. If your DH allows this outrageous behavior in a 10 yr old what is he going to allow when she becomes a teenager.
he is
a pussy. he is clearly afraid to make her mad.
Please try to take care of yourself better
This child will NOT get the better of you! and I would come down on DH HARD. Both need the fear of God put into them, by you riding herd dear. Please don't take this wrong but I am wondering if you would benefit from a prescription of some kind? anti-depressant, anti-anxiety? Just to get you going. I know you have it in you girl-!! HUGS
"It's funny how dogs and cats know the inside of folks better than other folks do, isn't it?"
- Eleanor H. Porter (1868 - 1920), 'Pollyanna', 1912