The FSD10 is coming this afternoon and my stomach is in knots. FDH as a wake to go to so I need to watch the child. There will be dozens of "Is daddy coming home soon?" to which I'm going to start saying "I have no idea but he won't come any sooner if you keep asking every 5 minutes".

Dad will come through the door and I'm guessing in FSD's eyes he must have a white glow around him. She will run to him yelling "Daaadddyyy I love yyyooouuu!!!!! I missseedd yyooouuu so much! I didn't know when you were coming home and I was worried! Now that you're home we can play, right? Oh daddy I love you. I was a good girl today and ate my lunch. I love you daddy. I will be a good girl and eat my dinner too. I love you daddy. You bought me a special dessert, right? I love you daddy. Can we sit and cuddle now? I love you daddy. Play piggies on my toes. Oh daddy i love you." and on and on and on till I want to blow my brains out.

Now while she's here alone with me we may play a board game, the wii, and she'll get her toys out to play on her own. Her friend may even come over and they'll entertain themselves. But when daddy gets home FSD needs to suck every fucking ounce of attention out of him. And she needs constant reassurance. You love me best right daddy? I was a good girl and ate all my dinner, right daddy? I took a shower and washed my hair, that was good, right daddy? We're going to have enough time after dinner to cuddle before you have to drive me home, right daddy?

I talked to FDH this past weekend about disengaging and it went over like a fart in church. He said if I get to pick and choose what I do with her then he will pick and choose what he does with me so there will be lots of time I get to "do what I want" in the future because he's going to start doing most things without me. He said she's a child so she should be given some slack and we all do things we don't want to so if I loved him I'd do for his daughter. He said he enforces rules in this house and if I fucking think I'm going to pit him and his daughter against each other I'm sorely mistaken because "You Will Lose".

Amazing how he grows balls when he talks to me but they shrink up and fall off when the fucking princess comes.

Needless to say after that conversation we haven't talked and I'm trying to work on finding my own place.