Well on Friday I went to court. The judge decided that I was not a threat to my skids, and that they could come back to our home. My ss does not come to our home though, my dh goes and sees him and then takes him back to bm's. We had my sd's this weekend, we had a wonderful weekend it was so pleasant and "the girls" (as I call them, my 3 bc and my 2 sd's) had a good time. My bc were so excited to see them!! My sd's came up to me and hugged me and told me they were glad to see me, they told dh on the way to our home "finally we get to go home". My dh is really working at stepping up to the plate when it comes to his responsibilities with the kids!!! Thank the Lord for that one.
The judge ordered counseling for everyone, that means bm has to go to counseling, that woman really needs it!!! I am going to go with an open mind and maybe something good will come out of it.
And this weekend my dh finally went to church with me, he really seemed to like it and is wanting to become more actively involved. The power of prayer and handing your burden's to God is so hard but so very worth it in the end. God gave me such peace when I finally handed him my problems.
Although I have not been able to return to work, I have found another job which works out so much better than my current job and I am supposed to have my 2nd interview tomorrow.
Thank you so much for your prayers and words of encouragement, we finally see the light at the end of this road block in our life. It was extremely hard to get through but I know I have become a stronger and better person because of it!!!