After much thought and consideration and crying, I might add. I have decided to leave. I am going to go get boxes, pack my shit and I'm outta here. The only thing that has kept me here this long is because I didn't want to add any more changes to my kids lives. I just really can't do it anymore. I feel like the life has been slowly sucked out of me. I have put in so much more energy and work and money than he has. I guess SD will be happier now, she has her dad all to herself.
As far as were I'm going to go, I talked to my ex and the kids are there this weekend anyway. He told me I could move in. I don't plan to stay there but he lives on the same street as I do now. I think I'll stay long enough to find a place in the same area for my kids, so they don't have to have extra changes. We are friends nothing more but it will be so much more peaceful there that it has been here.