Last night was a Thursday so we are trying to stick to our recent "Thursday's couple night starts at 7pm" and child reads to himself and puts himself to bed. Tuesdays he gets dad to read to him from 7 til 8 - trade off.

I got some wine from trader joes set us up with netflix and some food.
Luckily no interruptions in our night!!! Even though our night didn't start at 7 but at 730 of course really only 30 minutes earlier than his normal bedtime. b/c the child needed something every few minutes, then SO needed to know all about his lunchbox etc mindless shit. Irritating!!! but my skin didn't crawl and I didn't become enraged quietly so overall thankful for that. We didn't argue and we have a date night tonight while SS8 is at Gym Parent's night out. yay. No argument the night before date night. This is big for us.

Today we have couples counseling with the counselor I've been seeing.

Things are going well hope it continues. I've stopped helping put the kid to bed. I need to separate myself from him and his drama. I also like that I can not be expected to be fake mommy right now. I can be an individual with my own needs and feelings. I can't do that and be fake for the child - well have the child faking in front of my SO about how he cares for me. It's all a show. I like authenticity so putting boundaries around my heart and myself.

Who knows what the hell the weekend holds. Anytime anything is done for me SO feels the need to bend over backwards and have the rest of the the dame month revolve around SS8. Time will tell what the rest of the weekend will look like. trying to stay positive.

Happy Friday!