Dh so "kindly" reminded me that SS11 is coming home from his summer visiting mil in two weeks. Way to completely fuck up all the happy vibes I've had going dh. My mood instantly plummetted and now I feel like I have a death sentence hanging over my head. I have two weeks left to enjoy my life.

I hate that that's how I feel, but it is. He's not a horrible kid, but he is ADHD and aggrivsting to the max. I feel like I am tied down with a 200lbs anchor when he's here. Nothing g is easy, nothing is relaxed..... I feel like a jail warden having to be on my toes at all times.

Sd10 is t coming back and that fills me with anxiety as well. Not sure if it will be an improvement or not. Yeah she won't be here to add to the stress and I won't have to deal with her piss poor attitude and behavior...but now SS won't have her to play with and he will be up in my business more and will be all over bs4 all the time. This results in bs4 trying to imitate his brother and getting in trouble or bs4 end up in tears because SS is so impulsive and can't control himself and hurts bs4.

I am going to be living it up this weekend with my boys. Last taste of sunshine before the clouds roll back in.....