And working full time on your feet sucks even worse. Both at the same time..that makes for a very cranky Panda. My poor husband. And poor SD...I can't even look at her most of the time. I tried really, reallllly hard to be nice to her today and it went well. I know I will have to fake my feelings for her until I am no longer constantly exhausted..and considering that I have an 11month old and am pregnant...it will probably be a while. I have especially decided to fake my feelings for SD (rather than ignoring her completely) because she lives full time with us and her mother will soon be out of jail. She does not yet know that we are having ANOTHER baby and that may come as hard news to her. She has been trying to hug my belly though, or touch it, lately..so I think she may suspect.

I am not mean to SD..but I can't easily look at her. Does anyone else have this issue? Is it hard to look directly at your skids for longer than a few seconds? Why does it happen? I don't get angry or anything when I look at her..I just can't. And I can see that she is alllllways trying to get me or anyone to look at her. There is this big, tacky mirror in our townhouse attached to the wall..she CONSTANTLY watches herself when she is near it while she is talking to anyone...making these little poses and faces. Hmmm. That's what she does when she is trying to get others to look at her to. I do suppose that she is lacking in attention at our house..but our days are long and busy. She is in school and afterschool care with tons of kids..she has friends in walking distance..and she has the baby and her dad. Is she really missing that much..other than a mother?