Today is my 1 at wedding anniversary. 

I can't help but this what the fuck am I doing here it's just a reminder that I've made bad life choices. 

I ended a relationship with my DD to bio dad who was lovely and we had a nice life without passion or romance but was steady 4 years ago. I over corrected the passion problem with a new partner who worshipped me and had to kids. I had romantic notions of blending the family and taking care of the kids as if my own. 

And here I am on my wedding anniversary shouting at his awful thieving, lying and selfish sons. I can't stand them and everything theyve brought into my life. I honestly can't think of one positive apart from my husband who by the way is an amazing father. He works so hard for those kids, always disaplining them, car pooling and loving them - in return they are awful. 24 hours a day he's focused them and I don't mind but I just wish there was calm and I didn't live in with those kids.