So, as most of you can imagine I'm a fragile, emotional mess right now sorting through everything. I dont really even know how to write this blog so I will just start with Skids and go from there.

After not seeing their dad for 18 months BOTH SS4 and SD2 ran to him no problem, remembered him, and SD2 was stuck to him for the first several hours. Neither one had one issue being with him and not their mom. Even to the point of refusing to talk to her on the phone when she called wanting to pick them up early. SD2 is a crazy, always on the go, into everything, wants her way 2 year old. Not horrible just very different for me. I have the most mellow well behaved 2 year old niece who stays with me off and on. I've come to appreciate her MUCH more. Sweet moment with SD2, she had a major melt down, thew herself on the floor crying, and I went over picked her up and sat with her on the couch for about an hour of cuddles watching tv. She also calls everyone "mama" including me which really weirds me out. Anyone have a suggestion on an easy thing for a 2 year old to pronounce that she could call me?? My name is hard for little kids, she won't even attempt to say it.
SS4 was a normal 4 year old. Not nearly a hyper and crazy as his sister but much more spoiled. He has a very hard time being told no. And hes a very picky eater while his sister eats EVERYTHING and ANYTHING you give her. My SO made separate meals for him every meal, slept with him, and allowed him to pretty much do whatever he wanted which ended up being play video games.
Sweet moment, SO and I got in a huge fight, I was in my room crying and he peeked his head in and said, "What's wrong??" I told him, "I'm sad. I will be ok" he then poked his head in every few minutes and said, "You ok now?"

Ok on to SO and GU (the golden uterus). He did not tell GU about me or our daughter. He also got so upset at me for being worried about him going to see her ALONE. Then because he says nothing happened I'm being stupid.... Yeah whatever. The skids will probably not say a thing about me or baby to their mom. They really didn't understand who I was or who the baby was and why I was there. Nor did they show any interest in us. Which honestly was a bit of a relief. I was worried about them being around my 5 month old. SO and I got in a HUGE fight this weekend. Pretty much because we were both exhausted, stressed, emotional. It started over him sleeping with skids (which it ended up only being 1) and I slept in another room with my daughter. Then, the next morning he freaked out at me and spent a lot of time running into the room to talk to me. Never once would he apologize for the stuff he had been in the wrong over because "even when he apologizes I give him the same attitude" Then he was pissed because I kept him from his kids. When I'm actuality it was maybe 20 minutes and it was just as much his daily our morning was so bad. SS4 who he was sleeping on the flour of our room with peed. SD10 also peed. I think his kids must get it from him!
The upside, he really tried. He tried to not let them walk all over us, they ended up getting their way a lot and running amuck in the house. He made then acknowledge me when especially SS4 would prefer to act like I was part of the wall.

After they left was hell. He was mean, mopey, unresponsive, angry.... And they are coming back either next weekend or the weekend of the 5th!! It took him a whole day to snap out if it and not even fully.

I'm feeling happy for him that he got to see his kids and will continue to see them. And honestly sad that we won't have time together very much. SD10 would spend a rare weekend with her mom and we would get time. But now, we will have all 3 skids on the weekends. So a lot of emotions, a lot to deal with (I get NO credit from SO for trucking through all this w/him). I will just continue to process and work it all out. Thoughts, advice, questions????