allergic to BM?
As soon as E.T. found out I was in the picture she started acting crazy, so I pretty much knew from the get-go that she and I wouldn't get along, but it has gotten so bad that I am at the point where even thinking about her makes me physically sick!
She has her moments and it's been at least a month and a half since she has pulled one of her stupid stunts, but I still can't seem to keep it together. Yesterday DH and E.T. took SS to the doctor and tonight DH went to E.T.s house w MIL to see SS and give him a shot (MIL was a nurse for a while). Anyway, he has been there for about an hour, and I knew that he and MIL were going to stay for a bit w SS after giving him the shot but I am going out of my mind. It's not jealousy (although that rears its ugly head once in a while) or anything like that but I am so anxious and stressed that I can hardly sit still and ever since DH reminded me about the appointment over the weekend I have felt sick to my stomach. I don't know why I keep getting worse and worse, especially since she has not acted out in over a month. I feel like I am going crazy over here! How am I supposed to deal w this for the rest of my life? If things continue the way they are now, within a few years she will probably give me a heart attack or a stroke or at the very least an ulcer.
I feel a little better after this vent but :sick: !!!! Maybe I should take up drinking }:)
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Don't take up drinking, I'm
Don't take up drinking, I'm trying to quit. It just makes the problem bigger. I always get super sick when I know the skids are coming or know that I have to deal with any of it.
Over time, the visits get fewer and far between. Now our visits have tapered off to zero since my latest outburst at Christmas. The skids are jerks and I can no longer handle dealing with them.
I don't know what the future holds, the skids are 21, 20, and 17. I can't see how DH is going to be a grandparent or attend weddings while they blame me for all their problems and act like I don't exist. I guess we'll just take it as it comes. At this point, DH and I can't even discuss the skids without a blow up or argument. It makes me sick and sad.
Yeah, I HATE the both going
Yeah, I HATE the both going to the doctor thing and that he goes to see SS at her house, but I can't make too much of a fuss because SS is pretty sick right now. The joint doctor visits started when E.T. began to distort the information the doctor gave her (DR: SS has a small infection in his bladder, nothing serious right now but we need to monitor it closely to make sure that it doesn't spread to his kidney (side note: he already had one kidney removed a year ago because of an infection that he was born with). E.T. translation: SS is fine and seeing as you will deduct my share of the medicine and doctor's visits from CS at the end of the month, I won't tell you about the medicine or the "check his urine" part until he starts peeing brown.)
As for visiting in her house, DH knew that SS would cry when he tried to leave so he asked MIL to go alone to give him the shot but MIL refuses to go to E.T.s house alone because E.T. is crazy and kicked her out once before, so I knew he was going to be guilted into staying for a while.
I just had to write because I
I just had to write because I felt the same for so many darn years and so I actually made an "ALLERGIES T-Shirt" in my online shop with "crazy ex-wife" as the allergy... }:)
Anyway, I wish I could laugh...but I can't. I know EXACTLY what you mean. It has taken being very sick in the last few months for me to finally attempt to get the crazy witch out of my mind...and although never completely out of my mind, everyday I do a bit better...when the financial stresses rear their ugly heads, crazy always ends up in the conversation though...sigh...
Thanks so much for your
Thanks so much for your responses
I really felt like I was overreacting, it's nice to know I am not the only one!