This is a vent... and I know I am being bitchy- FYI*****

3/4 skids are adults. Thankfully I don't have to see them too much. SS20 I actually don't mind. OSD21 lives out of state so I dont really have to see her often. MSD18 and YSD15 are pretty much the only 2 that I have to see and they are the 2 that I dislike the most.

DH's brother is coming to town this weekend. So already I have been anxious, knowing that it is possible that the skids will be around. Its the same shit every time DH has family in town. I have to stress and worry about a skid visit. Same with holidays. I freakin hate it.

BIL is coming to get a car from DH. DH and BIL are then going to work on the car- oil change, change transmission fluid, spark plugs.

Um okay DH when do plan on actually spending time with your kids since you inviting them over. Because I am sure YSD and MSD are just dying to hang out with you while you work on a car. Um no...

If DH is busy with the car, what the hell are the skids going to be doing? I dont trust them AT ALL in my house or even outside. I dont feel like "babysitting" them. They are proven thieves and liars. I really dont want them around at all. DH knows this. This is why he visits with them 90% of the time outside the home. I just hate when family is in town all of the sudden now "Hey lets have the skids over"

So he says to me well if you dont want the kids over, we can all go out to eat. Which makes me even more annoyed. Oh I love how we can never go out for dinner, but anytime it has to do with your kids and your family- Its Hey lets go to dinner! Which turns into DH paying for 5 freakin adults (not including him or myself). Um yes because we have $100+ for dinner.

I know I am being ridiculous. I am totally aware these are his kids. I am totally aware that this is his house as well.

I will admit it- I dont like MSD and YSD. I dont want to be around them. I dont want to see them. I would even prefer to pretend like they dont exist. I really really really hate it when I feel that they are in my space (my house).

I hate feeling like this.

Of course when I find out that DH let the skids know that their uncle is going to be in town I am instantly PISSED. Which is stupid because of course he is going to let his kids know their uncle is in town. But really when I am thinking... ugh MSD and YSD freakin suck.. who cares to even see them, family or not.

I know I sound like a total bitch. I'm okay with that. I just don't buy the whole just because they are my DH's kids, I should like them. I don't. And I don't like to be around people I don't like.

I hate when his family comes to visit and they fawn all over the skids and I feel like the "outsider". Its not jealousy. Its like I cant even allow his family to be my family because of the skids. Hope that makes sense.

Ugh I hate step life and the way it makes me feel and the feelings I get with being married to a man with kids that I dont like