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getting worse before its getting better
Everytime I think it has reached its lowest point, I seem to keep sinking lower and feeling sadder.
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is it appropriate?
Is it appropriate for a 12 year old girl to "snuggle" in bed with her father still?
My gut screams no.
I hate it.
First off, I hate when the skids are in my bed. I don't go and hang out in their beds so get out of mine,
Secondly, my sd12 has weird associations with her father that sometimes make me want to vomit. She still tries to sit on his lap and starts hanging all over him when I am around.
So DH knows how I feel about the kids being in our bed and our bedroom as a playroom...
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the frog
A good friend of mine told me this yesterday:
If you put a frog in a pot of boiling water, he will jump out immediately. However, if you put the same frog in a pot of regular water and slowly heat it up, the frog will just stay in until it burns to death.
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question of the day....
How many of you would still marry your DH's if you could go back and do it over again, knowing what you know now?
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"You knew what you got into when you signed up for this"
This was mentioned in an earlier post and I thought it deserved its own entry.
My SIL said this to me back in December when I told her I was at my breaking point. The really funny thing was a couple of weeks later, DH took skids to visit her and the skids grandmother for five days. I stayed home due to work (thank heavens for work sometimes), two days in SIL calls me and basically begs me to take them back, said she couldn't tolerate it any longer, that she was not cut out to be a mother, and needed her life back. This was after two days of having my SD stay with her.
the outsider
can't sleep, so I thought I would be productive rather than to just keep laying in bed.
So you want to know why I don't feel like a part of this family?
SS8 made a little book/story today. he wrote on the back a short little autobiography about himself... He wrote, "He lives with his mother, father and sister". He read this to my DH while I was not around, and DH said, "um, you live with tryingtofindpeace too..." and SS was like, "oh yeah, I forgot", so he draws a little arrow insert and writes "stepmother", above sister.
I am not a part of their family.
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watching everything fall apart...
I don't want to get into the details.. but after seven months of unhappiness getting worse and worse my DH is finally hearing me. He is shocked at my unhappiness, shocked that I would consider leaving... It's like watching an accident happen in front of my face, not being able to stop it.
We almost split up last night.
I am hanging by a thread.
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Stuck
...not sure how to even begin this one. I am so torn up inside. I have been nauseous for days, can't eat, can't sleep, cry daily...
It has finally occurred to me that I am unhappy. I love my husband, but I loathe my skids so much that I don't know if it is worth it. I am thinking about leaving.
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birthday blues
My birthday was on saturday. It was the worst birthday I have ever had, not because anything bad happened, but b/c nothing happened. It would have been a fine day had it not been my bday. My DH had to remind the skids to say happy birthday to me. They didn't even make me a card or anything. I have lived with them for 2 years. My DH had been sick with the flu for the three days prior which he says interfered with all of his surprise plans for me. So he took me out to a store to buy a pair of shoes I had wanted and we went to breakfast. He did try but he had been so sick before.
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struggling with sd
How do I live 50% of my life with a sd11 who has verbalized how much she hates me and wishes I wasn't in her life? How do I continue to have compassion for a child who is mean to everyone and everything at a moment's notice? My reaction is to want to shut down and completely withdraw from her. I speak when she initiates, I make very little eye contact, and I avoid her like the plague for fear of taking on her wrath. She is an angry angry mean and selfish child who has a severely screwed up mother (borderline personlity disorder, which= highly volatile and irrational).
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