I am happy.. soooo freaking happy. I look back at how things were and how I felt.. I can not believe I let this go on as long as I did.

It was abuse. No other way to describe it. I was abused mentally, emotionally and financially.

I had to be responsible for and support 2 kids that treated me like dogshit. Disrespected me. Called me names. Went out of their way to make my life a living hell with lies and bullshit - almost daily.

DH was no better. He allowed it. Told me not to ask anything of them - let him do it all. Well, the problem was, he wasn't doing it. He wasn't there. I was and I had to sit there like some houseplant and allow thing that I did not approve of happen in my home and in front of my biokid. Complete and utter bullshit.

So, over time, I was reduced further and further to basically some subhuman thing in the house. I couldn't even watch TV in the main living rooms.. I was forced to my bedroom because the SS's hogged the TV's with video games or Netflix binge watching.

I withdrew. DH resented me more.. I resented everything. I hated the SS's for the bullshit they were pulling - and yes, they knew exactly the game they were playing with the home and marriage. It was classic. At 14 & 16, they were not innocent.

I stopped doing anything for anyone. Nights DH was working and I was home.. I would stay gone till dinner, serve it up and go up to my bedroom. The weekends he worked, same thing.. If I had my biokid.. see ya! We left and did things like go to the park (these such things were beneath the SS's).. and only come home for dinner and same routine.

Finally I snapped one morning. After begging DH to please see what is going on and how this was not going to last much longer.. that I am at my wits end with the hate and nastiness from the SS's, the lack of a relationship with my husband.. that we need help. PLEASE! This was one of many times I begged him to go get counseling.. all of us needed it! He didn't care..

The morning the shit hit the fan, I knew I was done. And I knew there was no turning back once I said what I needed to say to everyone - it was over.

So I did and the chain reaction was what set me free. I don't regret any of it - not one bit.

I am now in my 3rd month away from them and I feel awesome. I sleep better. I have better focus and productivity at work. I am a lot less stressed and so is my biokiddo. Our moods are better and there is peace.

I come home and am happy. It's my home and I can watch TV and not feel hate from anyone. I can make brownies and actually be able to eat one the next day without having to hide it like some freaking prisoner.

It was the best decision I could have made and if ANY of you are in the hell I was in, please just get out. After 6 years, I knew it wasn't getting better.. things would not change..

I know it won't be easy.. it wasn't for me. DH emptied out the checking account before I could get anything out of it to move. I struggled big time for a while, but once I was free I was able to really work my ass off and get somewhere.

I also pre planned.. I knew the end was in sight - I just didn't know when. I also had a hunch that DH would pull some stunt financially, I just didn't know what. So I saved what I could, sold what I could and bought gift cards on the down low every time I went to the store. 20 here, 20 there.. it helped. Some might say this was shady, but when you are told you can't save any money - not even part of your CS - that it all must go to the home, you have very little options.

God bless and good luck