Well, bf is flying back from working in NY tonight at 8:00. He goes 1st thing in am to get skids and I'm dreading it already. I have been alone for two weeks straight during which it was my birthday and his birthday. I guess I'm whining or venting. But you know they have their mother and I am alone. My family doesn't live here. I know I know, but I just want to get this out... I don't want to have his kids the entire weekend. Saturday and Sunday night. I work two jobs and next week I'll be back at it and will have NO time. If he even suggests getting them next weekend I think I'll puke.
Because my birthday gets ignored. No flowers sent, nothing and I bet his kids wish him a happy birthday (yesterday) and mine doesn't even get mentioned. I'm just supposed to take care of sd8 and cook and clean up after everyone make everyone else birthday cakes and buy them presents and all the while bf spends qt on ss11.

Yeah, I know I sound jealous, but at some point I as a person will need some qt. When? I know kids are more important than adult time right?! Not buying it everyone. I don't feel you can give a child a good start in life by ignoring yourself mainly because he in turn will ignore himself after all, I was a child once and still have quite a lot to contibute to life and those around me.. so isn't time with me important as well? isnt' my birthday worth celebrating? We'll see and I'm gonna have a tough time trying to keep up a good attitude this weekend. posts will be numerous.
Or I could be surprised?! Don't want to get my hopes up for anything because I'll get ignored..