Yes .... exactly how i feel today. I have finally excepted I have this and looking into ways of living with its many issues. I love my hubby and this will not change so i just have to deal with SD but she is moving back here.  We could deal with her when she lived 1800 miles away it was better. At 40 years old I thought she would have grown up by now but it's not better sometimes it's worse. I'm just glad I found this place to vent. At least I have my H that knows me my heart how it functions and also he knows SD's. Cut and dry... but not very fun to live through. The biggest hurt she did was tell her dad I was facking  TNB Cancer when she wanted to come visit one Christmas I was in a whirl wind at that time of scheduled appoinments and her dad asked for her not to come.  We are now thinking more as she has mental issues maybe by her living closer we can help her get the medical help she needs. Also it has helped me not take things so personal.*scratch_one-s_head*