I haven't been on here for a couple weeks. Busy getting back in the swing of working full time.

And I haven't felt the need to vent as much.

I went to my sister's birthday party tonight and her husband pulled me aside as we were leaving and said "I don't think I've seen you as happy as you are now in all the time I've known you." And I realized that he's right. And also realized that he's the 2nd or third person to say this to me in the past month.

Through all of the stresses that life has thrown at me this past year, I'm happier than I ever remember being. And most of that is thanks to having BF in my life, and that means also thanks to having SS4 and SS6 in my life.

There are moments that I wonder if I'll make it through the crap that comes down from BM. And moments that I feel like I just want to say "They are your kids, you deal with them and leave me out of it!" And moments I wonder if I've made a huge mistake trying to take on two young kids that come along with an unbalanced BM in my mid-forties.

And those moments fade quickly in the light of things like BF's mother taking me aside at Easter and telling me how glad she is that I'm in her son's and grandson's lives. Like SS4 sitting with me early in the morning on the weekend before anyone else got up and saying "You're a good stepmom."

It's really all worth it.