SD14 is "sick" so DH let her miss the day of school. I had left a bag of groceries beside the television when I came in. I walked in front of SD14 and I did say “excuse me for just a second”. Instead of pausing her show or getting up to help the pregnant woman carrying groceries she catches an attitude. “You could have walked behind the couch but you had to walk in front of me. You did that on purpose". I told her if she hadn’t noticed I can no longer squeeze behind the couch and it only took me a few seconds to walk over to the bag and I could use some help putting the groceries away.

I've been at my grandmother's because I'm so humiliated and frustrated I don't want to be around SD14. Looking at my personal pictures and telling BM about them and who knows what else. I just can't be around her. I slept in my grandmother's bed last night and it was the first time I've felt peaceful in a while but I know I can't hide out here. I was a bratty spoiled only child growing up but I was never down right disrespectful and self centered like SD14.

I'm 24 weeks. I've been putting off going to the doctor which I know is bad. But I wanted to schedule my visit on a cloudy day so the sun won't bother my skin and eyes because of my albinism and the dotors office is and hour and a half away and my second excuse is I was so nervous to find out the gender.

I know maybe I should not have done what I did. I was laying in bed with DH singing young & beautiful to him. I always get emotional when I sing or play from the heart. SD14 walks in my room without knocking and goes " You cry to much, you're always crying... do you have tampons"?. I was so mad I told her to get out of my room and my tone of voice got higher. she walked out and I slammed the door behind her. DH told me to take a deep breath. After I remembered she asked for tampons I opened my bedroom door and threw them in the hallway.