well, we survived...it was my first holiday as a family, and emotionally i'm drained. nothing too drastic happened it's just getting used to the situation. it seems like everywhere we went for the holidays his family brought up his ex. it was never threatening or anything, but i don't know, maybe i'm just a baby, but i thought it was extremely distasteful to bring her up upon meeting me for the first time. i've tried so hard to be nice and positive and on the surface that is what people see, but on the inside, i struggle with it daily. i've never even felt like my husband compares me to her at all, positively or negatively...he just doesn't feel the need to talk about her. I on the the other hand am almost always an emotional basket case because she is constantly talked about around me.

i was talking to my DH's sister through text messaging and we were discussing whether or not SD was going to be at Thanksgiving. I mentioned that he had texted SD's mom, that I had texted her, he had called her, and she never gave a direct reply. I mentioned that SD flat out ignored my DH but just responded to me about something off topic and that she always responds to me and his sister then sent a text to me that said, speaking of my DH's ex:

"She responds to me too. I hope he doesn't mind but I still like her and talk to her at least weekly"

The holiday just got worse from there. For some reason, this made me furious. His sister doesn't even talk to me or him that often. And the next thing I knew, his sister, her two kids and her boyfriend show up at our house from out of state to spend the night in our one bedroom apartment. I almost wanted to say, why don't you just stay with the ex...but, I'm not a rude person, so i didn't. For obvious reasons, this did not go well. I tried to be nice but I was still so upset about her still talking to my husbands ex that I was just basically silent the entire holiday.

Am i being too sensitive? Does it not seem out of line to mention his ex to me and right in front of me when I first meet you...SD wasn't even there, why are we even talking about the ex? I don't know, I guess I just kind of felt like everyone was wishing things were the way they used to be...other than my DH. he is happier than he has ever been according to everyone else!!

argh holidays!!