DH,

I don't want to fight with you. I just want to shed a little light on my side of these perpetual issues.

First of all, I don't like your parenting style. It's obvious that it doesn't work. I have tried it and kids don't take talking to them very seriously. If so, two of five of your kids would not have dropped out of school and would have graduated. Since when is it that they take anything seriously, especially when you don't SHOW action? Try supporting your claim, "Actions speak louder than words."!!!!!!!! But, this is not my problem!

Second of all, I don't agree with you/BM (witch) volunteering me to watch the kids. It is very inconsiderate, rude and I resent EVERYONE for it! Did you/WITCH ever stop to think maybe I may have plans or appointment somewhere? I think I should have a say in the matter and on my terms; NOT hers/yours! I want them here, just NOT ALL the time. Yeah, I think I should be responsible for them sometimes and not 90% of the time. I feel as though, I need to leave a little room for other parents to play their role in their kids' lives, don't you think? You need to tone things up a notch and quit taking sides/allowing it to happen. In order to get what you want, you need to COMPROMISE a little for me to meet you ½ ways. It can NOT be ALL your way. If you want it ALL your way, then expect to be the one watching and parenting them on your clock. Yeah, you are right I have always been angry. I was a lot of times being volunteered for babysitting and on some occasions I had plans.

Third of all, my heart was/is shattered from Stepdaughter & STepson moving back and forth. But, do you care......I truly doubt it?!?!?!?!?!? Now, my heart stays guarded. I DO NOT want give Stepdaughter2 a chance to have a bond with me. My heart will just end up broken again and do NOT have the energy to try!

Fourth of all, I feel as though you do NOT appreciate me as a person for the things I have TRIED to do. I have never ever heard you say THANK YOU for watching my kids for me until I got home from work? A little niceness goes a long ways!!!! How about doing something nice for me and appreciating that you had someone to watch them until you got home. NOT EVERYONE HAS THIS FREEDOM AND have had to RESORT TO LEAVING THEIR KIDS HOME ALONE. THEN, NOT KNOWING IF THE HOUSE IS GOING TO BE BURNED DOWN WHEN THEY GET HOME. YES, THIS IS A PERSONAL TRUE STORY (A single mom IN MY SOCIOLOGY CLASS)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just so you could spend some time with them, LIKE YOU CLAIMED!!!!!! BUT NO, YOU act like you EXPECT ME TO BE LIKE I AM SOME KIND OF SLAVE FOR YOU/BM (witch) TAKE FULL ADVANTAGE OF. I AM JUST DONE WITH GOING ALONG WITH THIS crap. I am tired of feeling like I am being taken for granted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fifth of all, I believe in forgiveness. I just do NOT forget about stuff people have done wrong unto me; I refuse to trust them again. I have problems with trusting other people anyways. As far as BM (witch) is concerned, I don't trust her or interested in anything she has to say.

It is my hope that you will take the time to understand my side of the issues and be open to compromise.