After to 2 mos of no computer usage for the ss, he finally gets to use the computer after being grounded... for surfing porn... The boy just cant seem to follow simple rules, like, you can only surf the internet for 1 hour per day, and you cant surf it if we aren't at home.... The boy just cant do the right thing... what is with this kid... Always trying to run game to get around the rules... His dad seems to think that I am a little hard on the boy, but I feel like we arent dealing with a 5 year old, we are dealing with a 17 years old.... And granted he SHOULD NO BETTER!!

Why doesnt he understand that if you break a rule be prepared to suffer the consequences behind your action.... If he the ss feels like the hour is not sufficient then he needs to be able to tell me in his own words why more time is needed... and his azz better be able to back up what his says.. At least support how you feel about something... if not shut the hell up ... its just that simple.... Each day I am growing more and more tired of this step parent... crap.... I feel like its not worth the DRAMA.. I love leading a non drama non stress life, especially if I can control my environment.... I love my husband, but I love myself more...

To deal with the nonsense is just ridicules. I feel myself hating being in this relationship... I really do... I beginning to resent his father... I can think of is that I HATE IT!!! I keep thinking its complicated but it isnt, I just hate dealing with this crap... I find myself drifting further and further apart from his dad, deep down I just want to be released from this hole of hell... And I hate that I feel disgusted about a kid, yes a kid.... You guys probably think oh he's 17, he will be leaving the home soon, just hold out... NOT,

Honestly I feel this boy will always be were he always is, which is living at home with his dad... I can picture it now, we will be 65 years old, my kids are grown and gone, but his son will be sitting in the back seat in our station wagon with a helmet on at age 45....that is the truth.