I need help! I going crazy, actually, I have been going crazy for almost two years now. I’m a single 29-year-old woman will little to no drama, UNTIL I started dating my boyfriend. He divorced his cheating and selfish Ex-wife 5 years ago. My boyfriend and his Ex left their 2-year-old son, now 6, with her mother. My boyfriend was waiting until he gets more stable to have his son come live with him but 3 years later his son is still with grandmother. Being that they both are not the best parents they take turns seeing their son on the weekends only. Since I entered my boyfriend’s life I told him that it would be okay for his son to come live with us. In the beginning his Ex did not care and never care so much before but when she realized we were not kidding, she filed for child support. The kid doses not even live with her! To make things short, after lots of $$$ for the lawyers, which I helped with, and lots of energy it did not seem to matters. The judge is an idiot and buys into her fake tears, boo ho.
My boyfriend pick up drinking after his divorced which I realized after two months of dating him, started drinking more during this lawsuit. I was working so hard to help him with the case and worrying sick when he would go out drinking.
Overall, now that the lawsuit is coming to an end, my boyfriend has also started to really work hard to make our relationship work and quit drinking.
My problem is that this future with him just doesn’t look good but because I care so much for him I also can’t let go.
A part of me doesn’t want to marry into this ugly mess but a part of me care for my boyfriend so much that I’m still with him hoping but at the same time I’m bitter and filled with hate for all the mistakes that he made with the Ex and with the drinking problem during our first year together.
I can’t believe how many chances he gave her. She stole money from her parents and he forgives her. She cheated on him and run away and he took her back. She disrespected his mother and he let her go easy. Knowing that she did all this, he wanted to make the marriage work and therefore during their 3 year of marriage she got pregnant. The kid turn out to be his therefore he stayed with her until she run away again with the guy that she cheated with a year before.
Yes, I know he is an idiot and a fool but I must be a sucker for fools.
I’m so confuse and need some opinions to think about. Some days I’m okay but most days I’m so unhappy.