My FH and I will be heading to Parent classes. maybe we can begin some sort of plan on how to get this thing under control.
I am very open to the idea that perhaps i will be able to relate on a live basis with other parents and see if i can absorb some wisdom. havent seen ss in a week and i feel good. dreading this weekend we have him for a long one. i feel like i dont have any time to myself but that feeling has been going on for while. i still yet to see the outcome of me giving my fh the disciplinarian title back. i held it for a while a whole year and a half. and i have gained title of evil stepmother. so i figured if my fh husband gets it and keeps it then maybe i could just be the neutral person in ss'life and maybe i wont feel so crappy about myself.
i am headed to counseling for myself jan 15th im hoping that goes well. i just feel a sense of relief that i can share my story with someone else and perhaps figure out why i feel the way i do.
i just hope they dont think im crazy or a danger to ss just because i resent him and dread the weekends he spends with us. i do love the little guy i just hope the feeling was mutual. i wish that when i hug him he hugs back and not because his dad is standing behind him telling him he has to.
oh well.
thanks for letting me vent.