I have waited 3 days to post this. Mostly because I'm so embarrassed that I have gotten myself into this situation when I KNEW better!  My last post was about the weekend/cookout/mom visit.  He had invited his mom and SD11.  I found out that my SIL had invited a few family members as well ( my brother and sil live next to my mom.)  Whatever, I just want to see my family, however that happens. So BF and I go to pick up his mom and kid. (My car isnt running right now so can't drive seperate) They live about 20 min from my mom. We get there and mom gas a headache and doesnt want to go just yet, she told BF to come back later to get her.  As we were leaving with SD, his mom says btw sge wants to spend the summer with you. BF says hes been working alot and we will see. To which his mom said well I told her she would have to talk to her father about it. BF then said 'and GF' . Which made me feel like my opinion actually mattered.  We leave, he drops me at my mom's and he goes to the creek with SD. It's a hobby of his ( gold panning)  About an hour later MIL has called me twice, I call back and shea ready for BF to come get her. Well she can't get ahold of him so I offer my daughter to get her. She does and all is good.  Well BF and SD11 return a couple hours later and he said something about her coming to stay with us.  Okay, so were gonna have this convo here in front of everyone?? I said 'its something we can talk about and figure out later' . Well a little later we were all sitting by each other and SD was bouncing around in his face. He snapped and said "I said later ok" so I asked what was that about? He said she wants me to talk to you about her staying.  Ok, so second time today this gets brought up IN FRONT of SD.  I said I thought we decided we would talk about it later. He buffs and walks away.  About 20 min later him his mom and SD walk out and he says hes taking them home. SD was crying and they left. No goodbyes, thanks for the food, nothing.  I had my daughter bring me home.  Now it gets ugly, daughter leaves and I go inside where BF sits playing video game.  I suggest we talk so we can figure this out...he BLOWS up! He has wasted so many years on me, I'm no mom, I won't treat his kid like ahe is mine, and to pack my crap and leave.  I said what do you want an abortion and just call it quits? He said yeah do it, that's fine!  I lost my cool...i said for 1 I am a good mom to my kids and their lives are proof, 2 when was the last time you voluntarily got your kid or offered to spend time with her without your mommy or her asking you to? 3 F@!# you.  And walked outside.  Cooled off and txtd his mom and asked her to have SD dropped off. Well she said she can be on Thursday if thats ok. I said whenever I'm done fighting over it! To which she replied well maybe you and SD can think of vaby names. I told her that her son wants us gone so there may not be a baby.  She said she hopes for the best and take care.   Haven't heard from her since and am currently getting silent treatment from BF.  My first doctor appt is tomorrow, I don't know if he will even go.   How can I raise a child with a man who in one breath is mad about me not watching his kid and the next breath he wants me to abort the one I'm carrying. I'm 19-20 weeks, its not like I'm barely pregnant and not showing.  Its such a mess!