Lately with the non stop hourly,daily,weekly drama that comes with mom and ss I catch myself saying this is not the life I wanted to have. After years of an unhappy marriage I finally broke out and ended up in this...I love DH, but the strain and resentment I feel over the impact on having his son with a fruitcake is pushing past my limits. I just feel angrier and angrier at the shit that we have to deal with all the #$%@@ time and I just really feel like it's to much and don't want the next ten years to life to be another miserable desicion.

My DH has joint custody of his son. He doen't have 50/50 time thanks to BM and a horrible attorney but he does have joint custody. The BM keeps throwing up that she is the Primary parent or primary custodial parent and therfore has more rights and say that he does. I was told years back in my divorce that unless you have SOLE custody the rights are all equal and custodial parent is just the primary residence... is that correct? She seems to think she can change child care providers, visitation days, and dictate who is or in my case is not allowed to pick up child on his day.

So I haven't seen or spoke to MIL since May. Today is DH birthday so I invited her for dinner. She accepted. Now I'm a nervous wreck. I really don't want drama on DH birthday I'm just praying she is respectful and nice cause if she gives me the cold shoulder or is hateful it won't be pretty.

With all the sadness we have and post about dealing with skids I wanted to post a little tiny ray of shine.

We had ssalmost 5 this weekend. Not our weekend but since he was to sick for us to care for last weekend we now have 2 in a row.

Anyway, this weekend was really good. He hugged me, invited ME and DH to his bday party, asks me to lay with him at bedtime, said thank you for everything we did for him, and didn't throw one fit when he didn't get soemthing he asked for!!! It was soooooo great.