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Ever think this isn't the life you wanted??

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Submitted by harleygirl on Tue, 07/03/2012 - 7:38pm

Lately with the non stop hourly,daily,weekly drama that comes with mom and ss I catch myself saying this is not the life I wanted to have. After years of an unhappy marriage I finally broke out and ended up in this...I love DH, but the strain and resentment I feel over the impact on having his son with a fruitcake is pushing past my limits. I just feel angrier and angrier at the shit that we have to deal with all the #$%@@ time and I just really feel like it's to much and don't want the next ten years to life to be another miserable desicion.

Does anyone else have these moments or feelings like maybe you should really RUN?

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Submitted by sonja on Tue, 07/03/2012 - 8:37pm

My thoughts exactly recently! I never imagined being with a man that can support himself let alone me! Im so sick of the financial stress and life that revolves around whether or not its the EOWd. GAH!

Never wanted to be 2nd best, 2nd choice, and 2nd in line when it comes to priorities!

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Submitted by whatwasithinkin on Wed, 07/04/2012 - 12:22pm

as soon as I pull in my driveway after work, its worse when I pull into the driveway on a Friday after work when my kids are at their EOW and not home, then I just want to run away and completely hide in a hotel somewhere

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Submitted by sasha101 on Wed, 07/04/2012 - 1:05pm

I often think this. Dh is the love of my life but we have his 3 boys full time and while they're not bad kids, they're not mine and they're hard work! I find them very irritating as they constantly seem to be making noise, attention seeking, whining, eating everything in sight and fighting. I have a bd20 who is grown up, left home and doing great and sometimes I really resent him for having kids so late in life. We're in our late forties and his youngest is only 8 so I have a few years to put up with it yet, and I'm just hoping we'll have our quality time together when they're all gone but neither of us are in good health as it is and I live in fear of us missing our chance to really enjoy life free of kids because we'll be approaching 60 and probably in worse health by then. When we first got together 6 years ago, dh was reasonably fit and healthy, but is now crippled with arthritis which means he can't work or do a lot of the things he used to do. Although it's hereditary and not not his fault, I can't help but feel cheated as he was able to enjoy those early kid-free, fit and healthy years with bm, but because he chose to breed with her and she's not fit to look after her own kids full time due to being a useless bitch, I'm missing out on a nice, peaceful, happy life with dh. The only consolation is that the skids have regular contact with BM so we do get some free time to do our own thing. I don't regret marrying him because he makes me happy and we do love each other, but I can't help feel sad and worried about whether we'll get to enjoy our kid-free future years.