So we told BM and SD about the baby last weekend. I made DH tell BM on Friday so she wouldn't get mad about it. Then we told SD saturday night. We had a great weekend with her. It's so funny how she tells BM how she is miserable with me but yet she stays by my side the whole weekend. She and I watch movies together and she plays with my hair. I love that lil girl.

So I think I am depressed. Which makes me really sad because I am pregnant and always dreamed of this being so exciting. But now I worry and cry every day. All I can think about is what BM and SD are gonna do. they are going to be so mean to me and make my life hell. I try not to worry but that doesn't stop me. I'm in the biggest funk. Maybe it's the hormones. I haven't had any enery in the last week. I have gotten in bed every day this week at 6:00. DH is being wonderful because he knows I feel bad from the pregnancy.

Wow I gotta tell someone. So took 2 pregnancy tests and those d*mn pink lines are brighter than the sun! Dont get me wrong I wanted children but we've only been married for a little over a month! Just getting SD to trust me and now she's gonna be mad again.

We're not going to tell anyone though for two months. It's too early to tell because I should only be a few weeks pregnant.

What have been your experiences with babies and SC? Was is horrible?

So I have absolutely no time to get on here anymore! but last weekend we had SD and it was wonderful. We had the best time. Friday night we went to eat and then came home and made ornaments. I wanted a "family" tree being our first Christmas together. So we had blast Friday night. She was so nice to me. And she completely forgot about the cell phone.