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Submitted by Cindy on Thu, 07/06/2006 - 11:03pm

Hi Guys, as you may have noticed I replied to a lot of postings over the last few days but wrote none of my own because SK's were gone and it was bliss, no arguing, no discomfort in my own home, no dealing with biomom, no nothing, just normality, well tomorrow they're back for a week and I'm already tense, I really wish my husband did not have joint custody. I feel bad when I say that out loud but I'm really wondering whether I'll ever truly love these kids, when they're here I really make an effort but when they leave I couldn't care they never came back, in fact, I wish they wouldn't. It's late, I'm tired and I'm in a sombre mood, I thought writing it down might help me get out of my funk but no, it hasn't. Oh well, wishing the next 7 days fly by, what a way to live!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Submitted by happy mom on Fri, 07/07/2006 - 2:46pm

I sometimes too feel that my husband didn't have joint custody too or even no ex wife in the past situation. It's challenging being a stepmom. I wished I never had to go through this....but reality strikes. Keep your mind on your own business and you should be fine, ignore some of the stuff you don't want to deal with. I sometimes have to do that just to get things done.

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Submitted by Cindy on Fri, 07/07/2006 - 10:00pm

You're right and that's just what I'm trying to do. To be fair to both of them they haven't been too bad today and my SD cleaned her bathroom thoroughly which was a first. I guess I'm just fed up with constantly cleaning up after these kids, I'm trying to set the rules but all my hubby ever says is " it's just kids being kids", but hey guess what hubby, I've been a kid, I've seen other kids. My thing is that I spend all my time when they're gone trying to put everything back in order only for them to return and wreck it again. It's physically exhausting, which makes it hard for me to become emotionally attached to them, I know it's natural to feel like this but I wonder if I really want to live my life like this or if I will ever warm to them. I guess for now I'll keep trying.