This post is a update on my parents going to court over CS. My mom went and got a lawyer because my dad turned around and filed for the hearing after she would not agree to a small amount of money from him and settle out of court. The backstory on this is my dad is sick, his health is not so great, and he was going to retire as well. The problem is, he agreed back when he and my mom divorced that he would pay for half of my brothers(2 of them)college tuition,and support the kids as long as they were students, so that is like when they turn 23 or leave college.

Well, our plan to see the skids has been put into action. DH spoke to both of them this past weekend when they were with MIL, and told SS about getting them up here. SS response was " OH YEAH, I WANNA COME UP!!!" So we will be saving $$and shopping for tickets soon. Our next step of course is having MIL communicate some w/ BM about this. I know BM will probably call us, she may do that soon as I know SS will tell her, and we plan to handle it in a professional manner, and if an argument/blow out happens, then we will just let it go, and stick with our first plan of going down to FL.

I just can't keep doing this, putting on a happy face, justifiying the peace I have gotton back in my life, and putting myself and my son first for once, after all I have had to go through the past 4 years. What good is it all really.....when one picture of my skids makes me cry. Or worse yet, watching my DH last night,tack a new pic. of them up on our bedroom wall before getting into bed with me, and crying quietly in the dark. Neither one of us could see eachothers tears, but they were there. I know we can't do this anymore.

Well my MIL is up here visiting with all of us for the week. Yesterday she spent the day with my son, & I.....we had a great day, and was a good time to catch up. Of course we talked alot about the skids. If it was not for her, we would know nothing. SS does seem to be doing quite well, is holding his grades up (first year of H.S.) and is getting into graphic design/art. He does have a flair for it, I hope he keeps it up.