Tired of ss7 walking right in front of me so I have to stop. Tired of him running into me and then looking at me like I was in his way. Tired of the disrespect. Tired of being told I'm not trying to be in his life. Please tell me why exactly I should be trying harder? Anyone else that is rude I would say something, my own kids included. But if I say anything, I'm picking on him....

Bm2 can be so strange. Friday, she texts dh saying ss7 has a high fever and is coughing and throwing up. Dh says okay, maybe he shouldn't go on the hour drive in the cold weather and just stay in bed. Bm2 says -that's what I was thinking and all of us are sick too.
Saturday she texts saying his fever finally broke, but still coughing and doesn't feel good. When do you want to meet? Dh says, we're all sick here too. He should probably stay resting and out of the cold, I don't want him to get sicker. She says "k"

So I'm crying and upset of the likelihood I am sending my own child to live with the devil, and Dh says how I've still got him and dd and then tacks on "and maybe you can start saying 'hi' to ss7 when he shows up". Thank you dh, kick me while I'm down. Remind me how you don't think I try while I'm essentially giving up on my own kid. Thank you for reminding me why I often keep how I'm feeling to myself, because you turn it into an opportunity to say how I'm not doing enough for YOUR kid.

or if this is really as stupid as I feel it is. So, DH asks me about 4 hours before I have to go to work (graveyard shift) if I am going to put up the Christmas tree. Mind you, I have had this tree for probably 10 years and it is a royal pain in the @ss to assemble and takes forever since the color code is missing and most of the color has come off the thing and it takes me a good couple of hours to do so and then go through all the strands of lights, make sure they work, etc. The reason he asks is because he wants to make sure ss7 feels like a part of decorating the tree.