Firstly I’d just like to say thank-you to everyone that responded to my last post and for your condolences.

A few of you have asked for an update on how things are going, so here is the latest.

(I’m still the CP for BS15 while BM still has BS12 & BS8)

My BS14 spends every other weekend with the BM. The last few times he has been with her he has come home quite upset. When I asked him what’s wrong he tells me that at night when everyone has gone to bed but he is still watching TV (which is right outside BM bedroom) he is hearing his mother going for it with her partner. SS14 has told his mother that he can hear them and he thinks it’s disgusting but to his surprise her response was turn the TV up louder then or go to bed. If I want to make noise while having sex I will.

I would just like to say thank-you very much for your thoughts and prayers.

Over the last month I have been slowly sifting through Dani’s personal items and came across her Step Talk log in details which prompted me to log on. At the time I wasn’t going to share about her passing I just wanted to read her blogs so I could get a better understanding of what she was thinking and feeling and what key actions I missed that lead her to think she had no other way out.

Unfortunately I don’t have the time to log onto ST everyday and blog or post replies to our Step Talkers post, but in saying that I do try and at least hop onto the website at every opportunity I get and at least have a quick read to see how all my fellow step talkers/friends are doing but I may not necessarily log on.