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So a week has passed

One week since she "ran away"...I am back to taking her to work. How? I hate it. I have to put a stop to this insanity.

I come here and read and it gives me back some perspective. I read on one post that we should not feel responsible for these kids behavior etc. I forget that. That if she is off lying to perfect strangers about me, and how horrible I am, then that is HER behavior, and it is lies. If these people choose to believe it then so be it. That is there problem. It is very hard to let it go, surprisingly. A person doesn't like to be talked bad about and lied about.

Only you guys get it

SD came home the next night. Should have seen the smirk on her face when she walked in the door. The reason she left....was because her dad and her had a conversation that morning before he left for work. She was telling him that she was going to have this guy come and pick her up and they were going to a hockey game....the rule always has been that we meet any friends before they do stuff with them. He told her no, because he had not met this "boy" yet, and he would be at work. That is why she got pissed and left.
Over a boy.

She ran away you guys

Yes, you read that right. She ran away this morning. Left an extremely long note explaining how we have been holding her back blah blah blah how she is supposed to be making mistakes and such blah blah blah...and she took off. Her dad is at work. She must have left just after he left for work this morning. She told her sister she was just going upstairs, and never came back.
I called her dad at work when our youngest daughter brought the note to me. He is upset...he seems to be angry at me. At least that is the impression I got. Wonderful.
I am so pissed.

The expectation

Ok it has been awhile since I have posted anything. Things have been up and down around here. Mostly down. I have been seriously "something"..perhaps it is depression. I am at my wits end with my SD. It is like I am anticipating these next six months so much. Sd is doing as little as she can get away with.
I had a huge blow up with her dad. It was ugly. Lots of screaming and yelling, mostly on my part lol. But I just have not felt like I am ever being heard.

Lost it a little last night

I kinda flipped my lid a bit with DH last night. I had enough. I told him I was done, that he and step daughter could do whatever they wanted, just leave me the hell out of it. Disengaging.

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So frustrated and angry

I have been sitting here reading through some of the old blogs and posts. The attitude here is refreshing...I see comments and posts that I only think in my head, but never actually could type out...because i have been on forums where you have to fix everything as the step mom. You can not experience bad feelings let alone acknowledge them.

The work /chore thing

It is nice that SD has a job...it gets her out of my hair while her dad is at work, and has made the summer's bearable lol.
It doesn't do a whole lot for her school work however, but that is her issue and not mine. She doesn't work full time and only works maybe two days during the week.

OK here is some more

This is what is bugging me about my step daughter right now. She joined the drama club this year because my son decided to and he mentioned to us that some of the drama kids were going to Holland this year....so step daughter jumped on that thinking that she would get a free trip to Holland lol.
She is just back stage help...won't bother with trying out for any parts in the plays. Not her thing.

I have lost it...

I have been doing this step parenting thing for almost 16 years....yes you have read that number right. I am soooooooooo DONE!! I have 6 months left before my last step child graduates from high school. If she makes it past her 18th birthday which is in March. I think she will move out just like her older brother did. Then not graduate, also just like her older brother.

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