last week, sd19 posted on fb that she was sick of being broke all the time, something always happens to take her last $10, she's tired of people who have more than enough money wanting to split costs and it will be a cold day in hell before they get another dime of her money.

i don't know what she means about "splitting costs", but it sounds like she expects her meals out and entertainment to be paid for by friends who have more money than she does. also, last month she was texting me on the way to her gramma's for Christmas, saying she thought she was pregnant because even though she had a period a week earlier, she was now spotting and tired all the time, and sick to her stomach, etc. she texted me right there in mil's house all weekend about how bad she was feeling and how scared she was. there was nothing i could do. i told her to get a test (even though i found it unlikely she was pregnant if she just had a period). the next morning at breakfast, she was holding her stomach, looking miserable and directing her gaze right at me. i ignored it. at this point, i was getting pretty sick of her pretend symptoms. (she also was pretty happy about me miscarrying a few years ago, so it's not logical of her to expect me to be her supporter or cheerleader if she were pregnant after how she treated me).

after we got back home, i had to drive her home and we went to the store first. she wanted a test, but couldn't afford it. ($4). she wanted one with 2 tests. i was paying so i didn't get it, she got the single test. i went to the baby section to get an outfit for my neice for Christmas. sd is looking at all the baby stuff, saying "i wonder what i'll have first..." then she was marveling at how expensive formula is. i came right out and asked her if she wants to be pregnant. she never really answered me. what she said is that she knows she and bf are going to be together forever, and i may think that's stupid because she's only 19 (got that right!), but she KNOWS it, and she knows they would be ok, and they would be "entitled" to "all kinds of benefits" if she were pregnant. OMG. so basically, she doesn't care that they have no money, because welfare will take care of it, because she would be ENTITLED to it. like it's just owed to her. i asked her if she was still on the pill. she said yes, but she forgets to take it sometimes, and she was 4 days behind then. hmm. she never forgot to take it when she lived with us during her junior year of high school. but now she's forgetting? i told her if the pill is too hard to remember to take, she needs the shot or an iud. she shot that right down.

so i take her home and tell her to let me know about the test. in october she thought she was pregnant because she was a few days late, and said she had been out of birth control for 3 weeks. someone who doesn't want to get pregnant doesn't just not pick up their birth control for 3 weeks. she wasn't pregnant. so a few minutes after i drop her off, she texts and says the test was negative, but maybe it's just too early to tell. nothing like coming right out and screaming "I WANT TO BE PREGNANT!!!" when you convince yourself that you're having symptoms of pregnancy when you aren't pregnant and make up excuses for a negative test to be wrong, it's pretty obvious you want it to happen.

so i think she's skipping pills on purpose to get pregnant and then she can say her birth control failed and that's how she got pregnant. she gets what she wants and can blame it on bc failure rather than irresponsibility. it won't be long, i'm sure.

anyway, she gripes about being broke all the time. she couldn't afford her own preg test, but she wants a baby. then today, her bf posts that they are out to dinner at applebee's, then going to a movie. hmm. last week they were broke, but now they can afford to go out? that's another thing. they love to go out all the time. (probably why they are broke). a baby simply would not fit into their lifestyle right now.

i really don't care what happens, because she is an adult and will have to deal with the choices she makes all by herself. it still annoys me that she wants to have a baby on taxpayer's dimes and gripes about not having money for bills, but can afford to go out every weekend. twit.