I am a bm and a sm. I have been in this relationship for 11 years, married for a few. I am pretty much at the end of the rope and will be moving out by the end of the summer. DH knows but he doesn't really think I have it in me to do it. He just does not realize how tired of it all I am.

With so much to say and vent, a little background. I have 7 bio children and 4 sd. DH has had custody for all these years. BM in and out, she is the friend and of course, what teen doesn't like having a 'friend' for a parent. I could regurgitate the thousands of wrongs I perceive as a parent but you know I came to the conclusion about 4 years ago to disengage and let those two people raise their children as they see fit. Its not like I will ever receive a thank you or anything. DH is clueless in the kid department. He either ignores or deny's what is right there in front of him. I am not that way. Right now there are only a few children left in the house and I am faced with the fact I no longer even want to be with dh. Too many bridges burned and tired of being the bad guy. No matter what I end up being the bad guy and I am not even involved. BM thinks that I should always be loving and supportive of her little princess's yet they are able to treat me as they see fit. And that is usually not good. I have done everything in my power to be a nice person.

In the end, dh doesn't want to step on bm toes because he doesn't want to fight with her. Well, honestly they have been divorced 17 years and STILL fight about the divorce. BM from the moment I came into the picture 7 years AFTER their divorce has painted the picture that I was the OW and the reason they divorced. Ummm...ok. So since day 1 the girls have believed that I was the reason for the breakup. I always hoped that someday common sense would prevail and they would realize I didn't even know their parents on divorce day but sadly no. My dh has no problem whatsoever yakking about my children's biodad who has not missed a support payment and really does try to support my parenting decisions. Mainly because he doesn't want to make those decisions! He will back any decision I make with the kids re: punishments, school issues etc. My children are far from perfect, but you know they are kind respectful people who have always been kind to their sf and sm because I have made it clear fromthe beginning they should and will be. My dh and his ex...well in between their fighting about what caused their divorce have spent years allowing their dd's to be manipulative. One dd is married wiith a child yet has had 30 jobs and calls her dad for cigarette money. She can't hold a job because of some slight or another, boss doesn't like her, co workers talking about her or wanting her dh...not because she is a lazy bum and dad will foot the bill.

I have finally come to the end, and trying to get thru the next few months. I recently took ysd to get her sr pictures done. Mom and dad weren't interestedi n doing it so I wanted her to have the same experience as her friends. Big mistake forking over cash for that. Not only did I have to tell her to say thank you to the photographer, but she did not even thank me. She has not looked at the pictures. I asked this am if she had a chance to look thru and pick what she wanted and she informed me no, she hadn't and wouldn't be doing it soon. I was pretty hurt. So, I came to the conclusion I won't be doing her grad announcements, her parents can get themselves to gether and get it done. If she is hoping her father will do it she is in for a long wait. Her mom will play the I have no money game because she is at the casino 5 days a week. They are on their own. While I feel bad, I feel pretty used and abused by all of them. I realized dh has no problem saying what he needs to about my kids but he holds the princess's on a pedastal and I am sick of doing the same for grown people. I did what I promised, I saw the youngest to grad but everything else is over.

Thanks for letting me vent..its nice to know I am not the only crazy person in the world!

Outahere!