Hoping that this will relieve some stress, and perhaps I can look back and see where I am being reasonable and unreasonable. Have you ever noticed that when you are actually in the middle of an 'emotional' situation....that any sense of reason totally eludes you? It's like when you need 'reason' the most....it runs like hell out the back door.

So here I sit alone in our house. Kind of just....sitting...stewing...sitting...stewing. It's day 3, I should at least be parboiled by now, still....no answers come. I cleaned the oven yesterday, painted the baseboards thinking that 'reason' may come back if I created some diversion. Nope. I DO however have the nifty little project of replacing the mailbox today...perhaps that will bring clarity.

DH is at his mothers with both SS's. This has been a fight since day 1, and where was reason when I married this man? God knows I love him, I just don't love the situation.

So here it is: Chapter 1
DH got a younger woman pregnant when he was on an overseas tour 14 yrs. ago, he had never been married, always wanted kids, and was approaching 40...so there's the oldest SS, DH quickly began to realize that BM was crrrrraaaaazy, but could deal because he was always being shipped overseas, he could pop in like Santa, be everyone's hero and take off again. Ended up at a base where he could have his family with him, realized there was no way he could deal with BM's emotional issues, and started divorce proceedings, she of course worried about her meal ticket, became very normal and amorous and did succeed in her mission of creating SS #2, and this put a stop to the divorce proceedings. After SS#2 was born she became worse, took both kids and ran off to her home country. DH did go through with the divorce this time and then DH spent a lot of money buying back first SS#1, then 2 years later SS#2, it's always been about the money and many times is with these foreign women. Of course after she ran through that cash, she 'missed' her boys (yeah right)and wanted to come back to the states and be a 'mother'. DH was being shipped off to Afghanistan, really didn't have anyone to be with SS's so he allowed her back in his life. He got back she had another boyfriend living in his house with his kids. He got a civilian offer in another state, retired and packed up the two SS's and moved, leaving her with her new beau, thinking that if he were actually home he'd be able to handle raising kids. Haaaa!
TBC