So it's been a bit, I've been in Indiana on a business trip, currently in 5 inches of snow and LOVING it (coworker not so much.  BUt I'm calling it Karma since he's been a d***.)

I officially got tax return money TODAY.  The lawyer has been paid, he's doing one more review of the papers, then we sign and we're done (assuming STBX doens't pull any s***, which let's be real... He probs will... BUT, I have proof of the infidelity, so I'd win in court.  I'll ahve the divorce either way).  I also recoupped the money STBX owed me from last month BEFORE I sent him anything.  SO yay me.

The business trip has been intense.  From the moment the coworker I travelled with picked me up he tried SHAMELESSLY hitting on me.  I'm talking, touching my legs, getting a bit higher on the thigh, making comments about my butt, trying to convince me to just "come chill on the bed with him" and various other crap.  Anyways it's been handled, I expressed to him if he didn't stop, he would find himself with a black eye, and then I would leave it up to him to explain exactly where he got the black eye from.  Since then, he's been docile, hasn't touched me, and is keeping his distance.  How nice of him, right??? (note, not the coworker I live with, this is a different one).

There is snow here though, which has been BEATUITIFUL, I've missed the snow.

STBX though, I think I can confirm I won't be able to have a relationship with the girls (which you all realisitically told me, but it still sucks).  He has informed me that he sees them as an extension of himself, how he doens't trust me with them, how the only way I'll get to see them is if I want to "act like part of the family."  Which isn't going to happen, because I'm not his puppet.  Due to me ignoring him.  I woke up this morning to THIRTY missed calls from the local jacka$$.  yay...

But this are good, they're progressing, and for the first time in a very long time, I have a lot of hope about the future.  I built a dog house, Psycho's dad and SM have been great and are watching my pups for me this week, they said they've been amazing.  I'm looking at houses (which STBX will not know the location of) and rommate and I were thinking we'd celebrate by going out and doing something fun once the papers are signed.  Like I can actually breathe a bit, and there's some hope :)  I still have a lot of healing to do, but I'm learning to stand up for myself, and while I trust virtually no one, I think I'm taking positive steps to being me again.