So...first blog, this should be interesting! Well I am a BM of two adorable little boys ages eight and two. They are my world! I also was blessed with three step children almost 9 years ago when my husband and I were married. And to go on and throw this in there my husband has had full custody of the children since 2003. So long story short I have had my highs and lows being a SM. Some days are easy and some are just plain awful, and here lately, there has been a lot more of the awful. The kids BM only has something to do with the children when she finds it convenient which it usually once a month if that. She has been in and out of jail for drug use and has never been a mother (well my opinion of a mother). I guess I am just so tired of the kids putting this women on a pedestal like she is a saint....and before you bash me I do completely understand that she is their mother and she will always be their mother regardless of what she has done or what she will do....they will always love her. But my question is when do I get the respect and love that they give her? After all I am the one that has been there doing everything she should have been doing! And yes I hate that I feel this way! I hate to sound so selfish! But damn it....where is my pedestal?? But there are so many other factors about this woman that makes me literally want to choke her, and I do not condone physical violence! But I just need a place to vent...Please don't judge me too harshly!