Not sure If y'all remember me....

About 2 months after I last posted on here when I was moving from SO's place because of NutburgerBM my world was shattered.
I have been in a completely dark place for just over a year now.
My son, my only son, one of the reasons I existed, was killed by a drunk driver as he walked to his dads house to get a video game, on a beautiful, sunny afternoon last mothers day weekend. He was doing exactly what I had taught him which is walk on the side of the road facing on coming traffic, but according to witnessess she came all the way across the center line and he tried to move out of her path. I felt/feel so guilty because just a half hour before he took off on this walk I had dropped him off after he treated me to a mothers day dinner at Famous Daves and gave me a card for mothers day. I wish he just would have asked for a ride.... but he was that way, wasnt gonna ask me for anything on "my day" . His card even said that. I miss him every second of every day and so do his sisters. SO was super awesome during all this, Just wonderful to me and my family. The SGirls were still their usual entitled selves and NBBM was/is still her evil awful self, Some of the things she said about me and my son during this and still says are heartless. I have learned that she is truly psycho and I dont care about her enuff to even hate her any longer.
I have finally moved from completely dark to overcast and thought of y'all and came to see if any of "my people" were still here and how you were doing.

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Well hi Mairin! and thanks,

Well hi Mairin!
and thanks, took me a while to get back out in the world for sure, , he really did turn out to be a great young man, altho I wouldnt call 19 a man, but he wouldve

How are you?

Thank you ladies and gents, I

Thank you ladies and gents, I appreciate it.

I remember you. I am so sorry

I remember you. I am so sorry for your loss. I have no words. *HUGS*

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I'm so sorry for your loss. (((hugs)))

I am so sorry! The grief

I am so sorry! The grief process is long and arduous and for a child it is absolute hell. I have lost my fair share and can not imagine the grief you are in. Feel free to come back from time to time to vent. Blogging on a widow site really helped me get over my husband and son's death, but the only real thing that helps heal is time and even then you never quite forget.

Hell describes it well, time

Hell describes it well, time certainly does not heal, time just shows you how to live with it. I am so sorry about your husband and son, I do understand, not that that helps, I know.
I also lost my dad unexpectedly 5 weeks after my son. 2013 was just an awful year.

I don't know how you or any

I don't know how you or any mom for that matter can survive losing a child. The mere thought of it makes my heart ache. My deepest sympathies, heartfelt hugs and may you feel your child's warmth wrapping around you with every sun rise and in every rain drop. God bless...

Very sorry on the loss of

Very sorry on the loss of your daughter.
Words are so meaningless arent they?
One of the hard things is to run into someone I used to know and they inevitably ask how many children you have, I stumble over that answer and then have to tell them, and the tears well up and well, you know.....

I'm so sorry about your son

I'm so sorry about your son bright1. It takes invincible strength to mother a child you can no longer hold, see, touch or hear. You are a superhero mama and I know that each day you'll live to honor your son. In answer to the question of how many children you have, the number for me never changes. I'll always say I have 5 because saying any less to me means not honoring my children's memory. I'm 2 years in this horrible journey and IM me if you ever want anyone to talk to. Hugs to you angel momma!!

THank you

so sorry for your loss...

so sorry for your loss... that is just, well, words fail me.

((hugs))

Hopefully there will be

Hopefully there will be justice, She sits in jail today waiting for a trial her atty keeps putting off. You see she was out on bond for drunk driving at the time she did this.
We go to court for a pretrial almost monthly. Itll happen sooner or later...
Thanks for all your sympathy and support Y'all

Wish I could be there to give you a big hug.

Your son sounds like a lovely young man who made his mother very proud.