After some much needed sleep, I was able to think with a clearer head about all the worrying I was doing last night. And I must admit, I feel pretty darn ridiculous. I refuse to punish FDH b/c of past emotional hurts caused by others. It's not fair and I will NOT be that person.

I still think its inappropriate for them to private message each other, but deep down I DO trust FDH and I really don't think it went beyond that first private message. After all that, all I was doing was kicking my own ass last night. Looks like I have some past emotional baggage that I need to check.

On another note, it seems me filling in on this past week of 3rd shifts has done some good at home. Since I've been sleeping during the day, its completely fallen on FDH's shoulders to take care of all the kids by himself. For the first time in awhile he had to actually pay attention and not just half ass parent b/c I'm there.

Today when I woke up the first thing he told me was how obnoxious SD had been all day. All I could think to myself is that is everyday. This kid never stops whining and asking everyone to do shit for her. She likes people to do things unnecessarily for her that she could damn well do herself and tends to treat people like they are her servants. Today, he was sick of it and wasn't having it. I didn't have to intervene one time when she took to bullying BD2, everytime she starting whining he put her in time out, and when she made one of her disrespecting comments or demands he stopped her in her tracks.

It was so incredibly hard to not look at FDH with a shit eating grin and give him kudos. It's also a challenge for me to not chime in when he's lecturing. I'm usually quite good at keeping opinions to myself, but when it comes to this kid it's like I can't help myself; I've never seen a child act like this, get away with most things, and get coddled to. It's so frustrating and painful to watch. I hope he keeps this up, but he's had what looks like multiple break throughs before and ends up sliding back into guilty disney dad mode. I need to learn enough self control to walk away. Not my kid, not my problem, right? The only thing I refuse to back down from is stopping her from bullying my BD. IMO I have every right to defend her.

Today FDH got a good taste of what I've been having trouble with since day one with her. From her dispect, demands, whining, not listening ever, to her bullying. After today, we go on vacation and won't have to deal with SD for a whole two weeks!!! I am so excited!