I guess statistics say that 2nd marriages have a higher divorce rate than first marriages. As a woman married to a man with a son from a previous marriage I know why that is true.
Nevertheless, my husband is such a difficult man that even if this were his first marriage we'd probably be having problems.
Right now I am having fantasies of leaving. He is so darn resentful of having to work to support a family. He is angry at me for a reason I cannot write about, even tho this is anonymous. He feels I have ruined our family.
We have 3 young children together & my 17 year old stepson lives with us fulltime..his mom is 3000 miles away. We used to live in the same area. She (the ex wife) is pretty much delusional.
I barely get along with my stepson & I feel terrible about it but I have given up. I am tired of trying to inquire about his day & getting monosyllabic answers, tired of watching him ignore my kids or worse criticize them or try to discipline them.
I know I am rambling but I am just so tired of this. When my husband & stepson are not home things are so much more mellow. My stepson just brings this tension into the home. I feel he rejects my 3 kids (9 months, 5 years & almost 7 years) and it hurts me. My husband is so uptight and freaks out about the most minor thing. When he is home I just get tense thinking that the kids will act up or fight & then my husband will overreact & freak out. He just gets mean & yells, nothing worse than that.
Right now I am imagining leaving our fancy 4 bedroom house & just living in a small humble place with my 3 kids & having some peace.
sorry for this incoherent rant. There are some things I cannot write about yet for fear that someone in my home will read this.